Life is a Bitch.

Thursday, March 31, 2005'♥

went out wid yijian ytd.
to town.wenta cut his hair.
liyi came ova joined us.
dinner.den movie at cine.
watched da dono wat unfortunate events or wat
i carn rem e tittle liao.wat a lame show
so not nice.n we r so lyk freezing in da theatre!
craps manz.whateverrrr.
slacked at centrepoint.
den whn gg home.
realised his ez link card dropped in da cinema.
careless blur ku ku siaz...lolz
pei him went baq ta take.
n we seriously looked lyk idiots walking to n fro.
den went home. -shagged-
but it was a fun dae out yeah. =) -grin-
suppose wana go for 2nd lesson 2dae.
but ended up skipping it s well..
n juz went for ent. lesson onwards.
played true or dare fer lyk tis 2 daes.
omg.sux lor.dun wana mention tose dares.
but muahahas...kummie kana de so much more jialat!!
throw face riteeeee...but nvm its juz a game.
yah guess he's rite.we gotta stop playing it.
or ppl is gonna start hating us liao.
for disturbing them or wat. lols.
i dono y...nowadaes ppl r rly nuts.
hahas...liyi gurlie...u noe i noe la hor.
1 kummie enuff le...
now derrick oso nv take med. -faintssss-
hahaz wat an arse... yawns.
alrite went long john aft skool.
had mah clam chalder w/o clam.
muahahass. aniwae is tt how u spell?
- shrugs - whateverr.
kip raining lately. so so cold!
somebody gif mui a warmthh huggggg!!! =x
y a w n z .
tmr afternoon lessons cancel!!!
so which means we will b dismiss at 12 plus?
WOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOO
good manz. =p

im vexed
wats happening
tell mi.
coz i wana noe.
i miss u.

Zombie@3/31/2005 04:41:00 PM

Tuesday, March 29, 2005'♥

got up early.
but missed assembly.
on purpose. is it?
yah yah gan liyi
go cranky early in da morn.
msged mi she's tired n stuff
when she's e 1 hu wanted mi 2 go fer assembly~!
aint she an arse? humph.
n she actually wenta bathe n get ready aft she msg mi.
siao ding dong...wat r u trying to do man. *bish*
den mit up wid cindy n shi si
went mac.but no appetite.
3 of them ate.i drank.
oh aniwae...its darling cindy b-dae 2dae~!
HAPPIE 19th B-DAE!!!! MUACKIIIEEESSS!!!
den f.m n candy came ova ta join us.
was talking bout dressing n fashion practically da whole dae.
ms gan...STOP ITTTTT.
i wan mah mickey mousieee shoeeees!!!
mah b-dae coming !!! who wana buy for muui !?!?! =p
lols...n of coz bitchingssss rite my gurl?
shhhhh... *secret*
went ta jalan jalan at j8 aft skool
bumped inta kum fengming terrence n sherwin.
den kummmie head joined us ta shop shop
saw roy.ah-huh.
was working in tis dono wat shop tt liyi bought her playboy rabbit necklace frm.
yups..haha damn cute seh.
i mean roy.not da rabbit.muahahas. -lame-
found mah skirt!e one tat ive been serching 4 lyk hell.
lyk FINALLY RITE!
haha ok shud up. -grins-
yah den went home.
bones breaking.n im dying soon.
damn tired. y huh.
i mean i slept at 10 plus last nite?
i noe i noe... it MUZ b skooool.
boring lessonssss.
n guess wat...im so glad tat i got lyk 6/20 for mah h.r
haha...was total rubbish tat i wrote juz fer qn. 3
leaving qn 1 & 2 totally blank.
n it earned mui 6 markssss!
smart rite...haha...stupid la!
oh welll...e teacher was so pissed wid us
she lectured us fer e very first tym.
i mean she's such nice n gently kinda teacher yah.
haha wateva... tats juz so our klass k.
I S O rocks! muackkks!!!

Zombie@3/29/2005 05:54:00 PM

Monday, March 28, 2005'♥

im home.
damn very shagged.
oh so thanks to ah an.
im lyk trying my best 2 slp early.
but he called aft months of disappearing.
chat chat.den dono y kip laughing.
ended up im even more awake den eva.
slept quite late in e end.
lazing on mah bed 4 dono how long.
woke up wif a damn damn bad cramp.
is rly tt bad till i carn even stand.
tears trickled down helplessly.
den finally...got beta.wenta sch.
oh my i miss my gurlies so much!
non stop bitchings n crappings todae.
hahs.oh n tat H.R de C.A
oh craps lor...juz copied down all da ques
n wrote few lines of rubbish
its s good s not doing.
den fall into coma liaoz.. zZzZz
so hu cares liyi juz pass it up 4 me. =p
slack in da canteen for e next hr. lol.
bunch of slackers uh huh.
but too bad.its all because of BORING modules
wif boring teachers conducting in such boring waes!
was having mah mood swing during k.b.z
*shrugz* too tired le bah.
n mah aunti visiting me...so yah.
but pei liyi to toa payoh central aft skool.
suppose ta shop 4 her tees.
she wana change her dressing nah!!!
but end up she juz da bao alot of food home!
such a GLUTTON!!! hahaaz. bleahhhs.
but she's so sweet. bought mi ju hua cha. haha
n PLS get tt m'sia accent of urs AWAE!!!
im so gonna slap u n straggle u soon ok!!!
n for hell sake u 3 idiots STOP speaking canto~~!
u guys noe who u r hor.
wah biang ehz.damn sickening can.
im trying hard 2 4get some1 n u guys aint helping mi at all!
HUMPH! nvm. u guys suck. i rock.
hahas... but i still love all of euuuuu! muacks!
muz help me look out fer leng zai ar...
fengming...r u sure tats his name.
oh my god.I HOPE NOT!!! SERIOUSLY!
coz tat name SUCKS! haha. *POO*
k... shall end here...cya tmr.
ms gan yi yi...i'll try 2 b dere fer assembly k
hahaz.morn col mi at 6 to wake mi up bahs.
muackkks.

Zombie@3/28/2005 06:16:00 PM

Sunday, March 27, 2005'♥

- yawnz -
shagged ar.
yesterdae went parkwae mit mah dearest sista.
mit up wid zhengjie n ken too.
saw sjb at da market dere
muahahs. fa fu le nah! =x
shopping at ebase.
bought 1 top nia.
not veh nice lehz deir stock.
yups.but aiming at 1 brown berms. =z
wentta eat zhu chao.
haha da most scariest meal ive eva had!
dun even haf plc ta put da dishes.
n u imagine how much ivy ordered.
damn jialat.hahaz.c le abit e er xin.
c the guys eat make us laugh lyk hell
till kinda lost appetite liaoz.
ma chiam hungry ghost siaz.
scary... * eew *
took cab ova ta teo heng.
BO LIAO RITE!!!
den all da rooms full so took cab baq to kbox
SIAO RITE!!!
hahaz wateva.mi n ivy was lyk laughing lyk hell
over something dere...
2wards da end... bitchings in da toilet.
muahahs... yeah we bitch aniwhr everywhr.
dun play play.
k session till 3 plus n im lyk so steam liao sehz.
more bitchings aft tat.
so tats wat some ppl mean by steady n so col gentleman
my arse... leaving 2 gurls behind juz lyk tt in da middle of e nite
not once but twice.
ok so we noe veh well abt so much tings.
n guys i find it so cruel to curse ur veh own relatives.
ESP ur elders.
i mean i knew it long ago abt certain things.
im not dumb.its juz tt i carn b bothered 2 sae anitink.
wat 4 sae so much to tis kinda big tym liars.
no...i mean losers.yah loser.
well but i duno wat benefit he gets frm it.
but aniwae once agn i wont wana noe.
coz i carn b bothered.
n i said b4.think twice b4 wanting 2 lie ta mi.
n wats more.tis tym round.u wana lie 2 my sista too.
ok.tis is wat u get.
nid not come n apologies or wateva shit.
im tired n sick of all these plays of urs.
mayb u shld join some media corps thingy.
or continue lying n cheating others.
but we wont wana haf someone cant b trusted s a friend.
someone who do things so buey zad lad we carn tolerate.
mayb onli ur bro can tahan.
thank god ive got such wonderful sisters.
hah.nvm.onli vy will noe wat i mean.
tats all.ive said my piece.
so sian...tmr sch reopens!!!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
all da fucking c.a n all.
tmr got h.r c.a if im not wrong?
3 dae in a week man!!!
but who cares.
all mah books r in mah lockers.
wahahhahaa.sho i carn study!
n i dun wana to aniwae.
hahaz.cya guys tmrr!

Zombie@3/27/2005 01:59:00 PM

Friday, March 25, 2005'♥

* yawnns *
its a good fridaeeee
hahaz ok mad.juz woke up nia.
yesterdaeee mit jacko at bdk
im late... no da bus is late.
n omg so so late
gotta take cab down marina
coz da movie starting soon.
mit zhen ni n her friend dere
watched the eye 10.
hahaz damn comical can.
den wentta haf our dinner aft da show.
kip laughing n laughing onli.
like what siaz.
thanks to ta "bright" joker dere.
muahahahas....
was thinking whr 2 go...
damn it....sg is real sian liaoz siaz.
i wana go overseasss!!!
i wana go hong kong!!!!
ok shut up.so we went dwn ta fisherman.
woooohooooo so mani ppl siaz.
hahaz.but staff so limited.
waaaatttttt siaaaaaaazzzzz.
now mah finger tips numb numb agn.
oh sharks.irritating...
is my body having ani prob.
am i having some kinda sickness?
oh wateva....carn b bothered.
die earlier better.GOOD!
hahaz k im nuts.im dehydrating!!
JACKO...MAO DUO DUO...
r u dehydrating too???hahaz.
ok la craps...arghh so irritating.
everybody's home. *s h u c k s *
aniwae im so pissed off wif some ppl still.
but aiyah carn b bothered siaz.
hack man.hahaz lyk wat ivy said.
yeah i will hack coz i carn b bothered.
n i hate ppl who talk to mi this wae!
u r a nobody 2 mi at all n u shld feel HONOURED
tat i already din flare up when u col n woke mi up!
n e more u shld feel honoured tat i actually col u baq when i wake up!
oh no waste my tym n money man.
* s h u c k s *
im realli damn damn damn pissed off.
wateva shall not let all tis spoil mah mood.
its after all a GOOD fridae.hahaz.
mah bro is back!!!!!!!!!!!
botak chao tar de ren.
n so mani wounds all ova. =(
hart pain pain. humph.

Zombie@3/25/2005 11:44:00 AM

Wednesday, March 23, 2005'♥

mit mel they all at small mac
went baq s.a.c ta take our cert
ivy too tired ta go
played "hide n seek" dere
coz we r not suppose ta go round da whole sch
without ani visitor pass
took mah cert
mel owe da sch money still so carn tk.
cab down ta reservoir
mit ivy
wenta eat n slack a lil
den dey went up ta her hse play majong
n mi back home.
aint haf ani mood ta b out at all
*sigh*
tats all... bye...

Zombie@3/23/2005 05:59:00 PM

'♥

parkwae again.
wid nana jacko ongling
waited fer ivy.
slackings.
cursing at some loser.
irritating nana outta boredom.
laughed our arse off.
fun n entertaining.
but im sad.very sad.
dun blame urself for telling mi
coz i will blame u for not telling mi
dun worry.i'll be fine. =)
alright... dun b silli kaes...
went bdk wid ivy
talk bout horoscope.
yes im getting to fall fer it.
coz its very very true.
home bitter home.

Zombie@3/23/2005 12:33:00 AM

Tuesday, March 22, 2005'♥

went parkwae wid jacko ytd
nothing much..
shoppings..bitchings..n dinner
den slackings at kfc...
yah talk halfwae got 2 ass shouted my name so loud!
who else rite... ivy n bugs...
scare me can..n paisae can..
den went ova ta chill at mac
damn shagged lately.
i dono y siaz... my face lyk shit!
arghhhhh.... n my a.p sux.
damn easily get irritated.
tink my aunty gonna visit mi soon le.
n ppl... beware of my attitude !!!!

Zombie@3/22/2005 12:23:00 PM

Monday, March 21, 2005'♥

went bdk ta mit up wid mah sisters
suppose ta mit at parkwae
but ok make it at bdk..nearer.
slack n talk talk
saw amelia n peiling.
hehz...rem us of sac daes onli sehz tt amelia
coz she was wearing da uniform?
got some musical thingy gg on.
ya den decided ta go baq sac on wed
take our certs.
yups..den went ta find ah ger
n we r so damn blardy irritated
got tis farking grp of si ah bengs kip disturbing
act s if we noe each other siaz
talk so much rubbish n irritate us!
wah lan ehz... asshole manz.
damn gek tio can...
watever...tummy upset agn
n felt so nauseous.
s if kana food poisoning siaz
went home...
here i am...my headache is baq..
duno y sehz...im getting weak
it sucks....
sighz....k den was toking abt freemann
heard tt he will b out in june instead of august liaoz
happy fer him... but i dun tink ill b gg wif ivy to fetch him
aniwae...yah guess u will b seeing tis
i dono how to sae it out esp directly ta u
coz i dun wana hurt u or anibody else
i believe deres somebody much much beta out dere fer u.
n it will b beta for us to juz be friends.
lyk wat we r now. agree? =)
my hart ish dead.
n deres onli him in da hollow space.
sighz...how i wish i could dig out my hart n wash
good ar...hahz...wateva...
nitees guyss...mish ya...

n i realli miss ya too

Zombie@3/21/2005 02:46:00 AM

Sunday, March 20, 2005'♥

* yaaaawnz *
juz came baq frm mah lunch.
* buuuurpz *
kae.. ytd mit up wid liyi gurlie 1st
yah waited 4 her since no rain till rain
den sun shining agn den she come.
wth... power arz.
kae went ta eat at cine..
den got some er xin ppl sit beside us ta table.
* alassss *
den went ta shop ard at wisma den ova 2 fareast
saw da converse shoes ive been looking for
da design da colour i love love love it ta bits
BUT DUN HAF MAI SIZEEE!!!
wth... humph.. i wana get it so much can
n tat blardy guy tell mi got no size liaoz
left da size too big for me le nah. pissed man.
wana buy tops actually
but i juz dono wat i wan.
juz kinda not in a mood to shop
feeling real xin ku all da tym
den shisi came to mit us..
bought mah belt...
actually wana get e transparent white
but dun haf... so sucky.. humph
den bought da black one instead.
damn tired siaz...
was feeling so sick still da whole tym
lyk gonna collaspe ani moment liaoz.
went meridian to eat n waited fer cindy
tat blur ass...juz infront of us
but she din c us..den downdere turn n turn
muahahhas... =z
yups...slack ard n tok rubbish
den bitch abt tt blardy ebony.
hahaz... oh my gawd... she sucks!
oh oh wateva can..
took bus home.
n fall into coma very soon aft i lie on da bed
saw him in mah dreams... again. =(
gonna laze ard at home...
sleepy worz.. yawnnnns.
-_-

Zombie@3/20/2005 02:40:00 PM

Saturday, March 19, 2005'♥

juz woke up.
having hangover now.
damn bad. -pouts-
ok abt yesterdae..
met zhengjie n kenneth at tamp
slack at coffebean
ivy came over ta join us
went down ta boat quey
on da wae my tummy hurts lyk fuck
felt so weak..
been lyk tis lately dono y
went light house.
continued their martel they left dere.
n mi..drink lyk drinking pure coke.
n im so dead drunk aft e veh last drop of mah drink
even b4 touching da chivas
carn even stand properly
kip puking n puking lyk nobody biz
n did i fall? *shrugz*
carn rem le.carn even rem i did msg him.
till i saw all da msg-es in mai inbox juz now.
damn it. *sigh* i broke da promise to myself.
fucking hell. im so pissed wid myself now.
sighz wateva. carn do anitink oso.
silent tears juz kip rolling down my cheeks
i hate it. i hate silent tears.
da most painful tears u haf when u r sehz or aslp.
lyk wat ken told mi...
the purpose of drinking is not escape from reality but to relax
ya its true but i guess i juz choose ta escape frm it.
deep inside mah hart im juz s weak lyk ani others
but i choose ta escape frm everything.
it may not be da wae out..but its da perfect wae 4 me.
puked agn juz now.
damn xin ku. *sigh*
i guess i noe y. juz ate 1 pack of instant noodle ytd noon.
n its for da whol dae till now.
empty stomach. *sigh*
im hungry n im dehydrating.
but..juz feel lyk puking.
sigh..ltr gg town.
so c u guys ard if u guys r heading down 2 k
take care all...miss u guys...*hugss*

Zombie@3/19/2005 09:30:00 AM

Friday, March 18, 2005'♥

din go ta sch.
self claimed hols.
stuck at home da whole morn.
im bored.n im down.
someone brighten up my dae pls.
dreamt of him again.
y am i alwaz dreaming of him so much.
sometyms sweet.
sometyms real painful.
when will all these gonna end.
im tired.im real real tired n upset.
of all tat haf happened.
i wana scream my lungs out
n cry my hart out
can i..i carn..

Zombie@3/18/2005 11:06:00 AM

Thursday, March 17, 2005'♥

finally...finally...finally
n i mean FINALLY!!!
i went for mah 1st lesson!
actually hmmz..can b in tym 4 da assembly
but moi n liyi wenta haf our big breakfast instead. =p
late fer 1st lesson but still i made it!
muahahhas.ok watever.lame nah.
hmmz..had keyboarding c.a 2dae.
its lyk more den half of da klass kana "debar" fer tis 1st c.a
n needless to sae..im one of them.
BUT da teacher let us take it first.
if deres an improvement in our attendance den it will b taken into a/c.
if not...tis c.a will b ignore thoroughly!
fark sehz...piece of shit! *arghhh*
n i passed!got 41 wpm wid 98% accuracy.alrite le nah.
dun expect too much okie.
n den something happened
n i was SO DAMN PISSED OFF!
dun wana tok abt it animore coz i guess its a waste of tym!
watever...im juz so so pissed off.up till now.
oh wateva...had entertainments frm da bloody kum feng ming
cheer up a lil...haha oh mine he sucks lor
he wana kicked my chair
but end up he hit da keyboard n da "tray"
den everything came off n fall onto the floor wid a loud "BOMB"
n he nearly tripped himself s well
muahahhahaz...so sia suey rite...serve u rite!
for disturbing mi! *bleahs*
sickening alwaz wana be zhong wu yan. *pukes*
sighz...damn tired siaz...juz fin eating mah lunch/dinner.
yawnsss...shld i stay home n rest or shld i go out neh.
yawnnsss... -_-

Zombie@3/17/2005 04:28:00 PM

Wednesday, March 16, 2005'♥

didnt go ta sch.
stuck at home da whole dae
my head hurts lyk fuck.
mai mother found out abt it
its been monthss...
had a lil fite wid her last nite
i tot everything is over now
i tot ive got to live peacefully agn
but no its not.
told juz 1 or 2 of u guys abt it few months baq
nobody noes it.
nobody noes da dark secret of mi living in tis fam.
everything's so screwed up.
problems everywhere.
n juz when i tot all tis shit is gonna end soon
it happened agn.
i hate it.y muz it alwaz happen to me.
nobody wans it.
but y me.
been bottling everything up all 2 myself
im going nuts.im going crazy.
it hurts enuff.
i dun wana haf another chapter full o pains n miseries all over agn.
facing the world of cold-blooded ppl n crude things all ard.
take everything awae frm mi.
once n 4 all.

Zombie@3/16/2005 03:22:00 PM

Tuesday, March 15, 2005'♥

over slept agn todae..
gotta slp at lyk onli bout 2 plus or so last nite
lay on mah bed for hrs juz carn get ta slp
tons n loads of stuffs flowing into my mind
flashbacks n of coz memories..
carn help it..carn bear da pains..
carn fight baq da tears once agn.
cried myself ta sleep..feeling so terrible
isolated in a world of cold-feelings n loneliness
i hate it.i hate everything.
was suppose 2 haf our presentation 2dae
so dragged myself 2 sch agn at lyk 8 plus
n i rly mean draggggeeed.
reached at bout 9 plus wid a damn lousy mood
sigh..shldnt have done tat.
xoz its postpone to tmr!
wth...sigh...actually we can do it 2dae but deb's 2 late in passing us da stuffs.
so ya...i really dun feel lyk gg sch animore!
sucks!juz wana isolate myself up in tis lil corner!
life is so fuck up.
i carn take it.i juz hate everything bout it!
sigh..something real suey happened 2dae.
but well not in ani mood 2 share..
but mai gurlies noe yeah..n f.m is da 1st 2 noe.*arhh*
bloody cindy stop laughing at me already k!
HUMPH! -_-
ran awae for quek lesson n went shopping at j.8
bought mai blardy shoes from trendy zone
den shop ard n eat
tried the new ebi prawn thingy frm old chang kee
erm..not veh nice...yah..
gonna watch tv now.
bye ppl...take care n miz u guys..

i miz u real badly
i dreamt of u so much

Zombie@3/15/2005 06:45:00 PM

Monday, March 14, 2005'♥

1st of all.wana thank jac 4 helping mi find tis song!!
my favourite sooooong.n its fer tat some1 in mah hart.
k though its juz parts of it its fer him but still i rly luv tis song.
so...thank u so so much jacccckkkooooo.muacks.

alrite.late fer sch agn tis morn.
reached at lyk...gg 11?
n ya juz step into klass 4 bout 5 mins
tat blardy hamster released us fer lunch.
dumb huhz...hahz...wateva.
but no appetite fer lunch at all.so ya.
havent been attending assembly for...
ok...i dono..seriously i lost count of da no. of daes.
oh well..ms gan received her warning leta le.
but i din.so ill jolly well sit baq n wait for it! -_-
went to ms gan liyi hse aft sch to do our ent project.
having presentation n all tmr.
saw him online.din expect he will click on mi.
talked a lil.oz aunty gan nagging.sigh..=(
im gonna fuck da damn hamster upside down.
he wrote our date o presentation wrongly!
its suppose to b 16 on wed..n not 15..which is tmr!
wat e fuck.haik..i hope everything will juz turn out well tmr.
im scared.i dread presentations.
im nervous.n juz e tot of it.makes mi so tensed up.
aint got ani appetite up till now.
im tired.real real tired.but im suffering frm insomnia.
somebody...save mi frm all these.
not feeling well lately s well...sigh...
sucks.it rly rly sucks.
when will all tis come to an end.
juz when will it be.
oh aniwae.i felt so good in e noon.
complained to annie koh abt tose bitches down at da cobra garden
poor services.dun u guys learn customer service?
im sure u did.coz ms koh saes so.
but oh well..uncivilised ppl wont understand wat's it all abt ya.
but its ok.its fine wif mi.
u pay ur price for being rude wif mi.
n veh soon.da ent teachers will b looking for u.
so good luck bitches.
-wide grin-
dun wana tok bout it animore.
since its over.n im satisfied wif how it all ended.hahz
sigh...i wonder if i will oversleep tmr morn.
shit ass...sigh... =(

Zombie@3/14/2005 10:42:00 PM

Sunday, March 13, 2005'♥

juz got home..yawns..damn shagged sia.
wenta golden mild or wateva it's spelled
wid liyi 2 ask bout her tickets ta k.l during da coming hols
went to quite a no. of agencies
den ya finally reserve da tickets in e end
took cab down p.s n had our dinner
den mit up wif nana n ivy.
shopping tym.walk ard den dwn 2 fareast.
damn tired sia.is lyk so e far ta walk all da wae down can.
ya den continue 2 shop shop ard
n finally slacked at kfc.
legs lyk gonna break soon anitym.
aint in ani good mood da whole tym
memories were all ard.everywhr aniwhere.
n its all so so fresh in mai head still.
but oh well..wat can i do but 2 act gila n playful thru out.
took cab down 2 bugis 2 mit up wid kris maine n daniel.
yeah but in e end they went home to change la.
so went down to club x ta wait for them.
was suppose 2 take cab but wtf.not a single cab.
damn pissed off can...sucker sehz.
in e end took da train down.faster rite.haaz.
den ya jayius bird n friends came too.
long tym no see see ar..hahaz.
fav technos blasting awae thru e nite.
felt so down.real real down.
he occupied my entire mind.
i miss him.so much.
memories of us flowed baq.
once agn.n da pain is dere..still.
i dono y i rly fall tis tym round
its stupid.absolutely dumb.
my friends were rite.
its not worth it.i shld let it go thoroughly.
4get abt him n find someone beta
i wished i could.i wana.
i tried.but things were still da same.
n dere's onli him right here in mai hart.
it sux.i hate da feeling.
my gurl is feeling so down too.
comforted her.guess she's fine for a moment.
but i know u r not.cheer up k.
no matter wat happens..u noe im still here.
n i will alwaz be.*hugs* =)
yah den wenta ta coffeeshop n slack 4 awhile
n here i am..home swit home.
n oh..ok..things btw mi n him is fine now.
i hope we wont quarrel agn over small things.
i mean i do treasure tis friendship though i din show it out.
but ya s wat i said in e sms..u shld noe my character ya?
but wateva it is im juz glad everytink's over now.
n yupss.we r n we will go baq 2 wat we used ta be.ya?
friends alwaz...take care alrite...
n thnks fer ur concern.ill b strong.=)
cya on mondae dude.take care yeah.
nitey nitey ppl...

Zombie@3/13/2005 03:28:00 AM

Friday, March 11, 2005'♥

da dae we met
ur sunny smile made my day
warm handshake
lead me out of the darkness
love was not only in my dreams
it was not what they think
grip on to the impossible?

Friends or Lovers
I am really clueless
sweet messages flood into my mobile
longing to hold you
to touch u
to kiss u
to follow ur every move
but onli empty promises came on me

It wasnt fair
My heart hurts
Tears flow
You'r the one that say u loved me
I look at you full of pain
Shattered by ur disapproving eyes
I bite my lips with bitterness
I shut my ears
I dont wana hear a single lie
From you animore....

Love is a feeling tat once it's develop,
it's hard to forget & always remembered...
(.copy.righted.frm.deb's.blog.)

been some times since i last blogged
nth much to blog abt
life is juz so meaningless now
missing him badly still
but lyf still gotta go on i noe
aniwae saw somebody blog juz now
oh well..if u din do anitink wrong
r u trying 2 sae we r 2 blame 4 everything?
u, screaming n shouting at us
u, venting ur anger on us takin' us 4 granted
u, out of nothing find faults wif us
oh well..yeah so tts wat u mean by u nv do anitink wrong?
who is da one who dont treasure tis friendship in da first plc
think abt it man.
reflect on urself b4 acting lyk a damn victim.
whatever.i carn be bothered.
i seen it thru some ppl.
n i noe who's worth being a friend n who's not.
so i dun wana comment much.
n oh nid not gif in coz im a ger.
u wan u come.i dun gif a damn.
so much had happened lately.
im tired.im numb.towards everything.
so i carn fucking b bothered wif anitink.
my dear bro reported fer army todae
n i so gonna miss him.
gonna be so quiet at home.
juz hope he'll b fine in dere.
thats it.bye world..

Zombie@3/11/2005 08:50:00 AM

Friday, March 04, 2005'♥

kae..my 3rd post 2dae.
watever.juz feel lyk bursting.
wat shld i do.i rly dono.
u alwaz said u will msg me or col mi later.
but ur later never never comes.
y muz u lie.if u r really talking 2 ur bud.
i dun c a nid 4 u 2 lie.
u carn b bothered 2 even explain things 2 me.
u dun even haf de patience to.
once n agn i gif u baq da trust u shld haf.
instead of u earning it baq urself.
but u break it all over again.
tats juz not u.
its all excuses.
its an excuse tat u needa cut down on ya msg-es.
its an excuse tat u r busy for da whole dae till u carn even gif mi a simple msg.
its an excuse tat u r alwaz alwaz tired.
its even a damn farking big excuse 2 tell mi u r a lazi person.
when someone rly matters 2 u
u wont b acting this wae.
u came up wid so so mani excuses.
u think i dono anitink.
u r not lyk tat in da past.
u tink i carn c n feel tis big big diff.
u changed thoroughly.
u can col a ger in da middle of da nite.
but u carn even gif mi a simple msg s promised.
tats so not u.u werent lyk tis at all.
fine.i kip quiet.
wat else u expect me to do.
u tink i enjoy quarrelling wif u.
i dun.n i juz hate it.
but u r da one who alwaz started it indirectly.
i believe u rly do love mi in da past.
but not animore.
da difference is too great.
u no longer assure mi anitink.
u no longer gif mi da kinda secure feeling.
u no longer care for me.
u no longer bother abt anitink.
u no longer do tose tinks tat u used to do
to make me feel loved.
i wana gif in.n i tried.
but deres alwaz a limit to everything.
i wan nothing.
but juz u 2 shower some care n love on mi
to dote on mi n pamper mi at tyms
to b dere 2 hear my probs when i col u
2 assure me now n den da feelings u haf 2wards me
2 gif mi a sense of belonging in ur lyf.
n make mi feel secure in ya arms.
tats wat every gal would ask for.
is tat all too much.
i dun wana sit here alone wif my tots drifting so far
i dun wana sit here n afraid tat im sharing u wif others
i dun wana sit here tearing again.
im down rite disappointed in u
wif all da answers u gave.
i guess i came to realise aft everything
i juz gotta accept this cruel n harsh facts
tat i no longer matters 2 u
n u no longer love mi animore.
i dun wish 2 b sharing u wif others.
but its something i carn take control of.
dun sae u miz mi when u dun.
dun sae u love mi when u no longer do.

Zombie@3/04/2005 11:59:00 PM

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some ppl juz tot tat da whole world owes him
n u tot tat we farking owe u too
stop showing all da fuck up att
taking us for granted AGN N AGN
who da hell u tink u r man?
JUZ A NOBODY.
u think u r tat great?
MY TOES R LAUGHING.
ive never seen someone lyk u
never man.i duno if i shld b happi or shld i feel sad abt it.
look.its ok if u r ball-less.it ok if u wana show da whole world tat u r.
but hey.juz fark ur arse off frm us.
oz we simply DUN OWE YOU ANITINK!
i tot u changed ur farking att.
oh well yes aft all u din.
so wat.i carn b bothered animore.
i treat u s a pal.but wat do U treat mi s?!
or rather..wat do U treat US as?
think abt it man.
oh my com' to think of it.
i realise i juz gota thank u somehow
for showing mi how true u can b s a friend.
n now i c it thru u.
thankew so damn fucking much.
n so i wont b wasting tym on such ppl!
n hey look..if u wana tell stories abt us.
do tat right in front of our face.
n not acting lyk a bloody sissy telling stories everywhere behind our back!
freak man oh my god!
hey juz fark off n stop showing tat da-whole-world-owes-mi kinda att.
or -hey-im-so-great- att la.
pls la...take a look at urself.at ur character.
it juz sucks.downrite sucks to da core!
alrite.im juz here to sae my peace.
n tats it.fark da hell off man knn freak.
acting lyk a bimbo trapped in a bastard's body!

Zombie@3/04/2005 05:11:00 PM

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late fer sch 2dae.
damn paisae.da whole sch de eyes on us
n tat bloody s.c waited fer us den start assembly.
xia suey lor.
whatever.i am so damn bad mood now!
damn damn damn bad mood n pissed off.
whatever.sickening freak.knn.
now suppose 2 b foong lesson.
but wat e fuck da bloody hamster came in.
c him i juz feel even more n more irritated!
WHATEVER MAN!

Zombie@3/04/2005 08:41:00 AM

Thursday, March 03, 2005'♥

a simple dae
overslept again.
blardy arse.i hate bao toh kia lor.
wat do u get frm it man!
big fuck huh even if u r a monitress?
its juz sho meaningless when deres actually nobody who even look up 2 u s 1!
so stop acting lyk a blardy bimbo k!
oh wait..u dun even haf wat it takes 2 b a bimbo man!
so juz fark off man.
heavy downpour.
thanks gurl 4 dropping mi off at da mrt
went ta toa payoh ta meet my boi boi
*muacks* den went home slack n laze ard.
im so so tired now.
i miss my darling.
i wish i could c u 24/7.
never never part.
i miss u hell lots.
u r my everything.
i love u.

Zombie@3/03/2005 09:10:00 PM

Wednesday, March 02, 2005'♥

my head hurts lyk hell now
been tinking lots n lots of stuffs last nite
n i juz carn getta sleep agn..
so..slept quite late at lyk 3 4 plus..
carn wake up 4 morn lessons
went ta skool aft s.w. aft miting up wid mai gurlies
yeah had a talk durin' entrepreneur lesson.
oh well..i got eyes n ears 2 c n judge thinks 4 myself
sho dun wana sae so much either.
but deep inside...i clearly noe wats gg on.
n i believe nobody but myself.
tat shld b da wae.isnt it.
taking a rest now since i carn take a nap
im afraid i'd juz fall into a coma or wateva.
oz meeting my sisters later..
*yawnss*
gonna go laze ard now.be baq soon.

Zombie@3/02/2005 04:56:00 PM

Tuesday, March 01, 2005'♥

mood aint tat gud lately.
lots of things happened.
choose not ta go tink or do anitink abt it
or my temper gonna go hay wire agn n things will sure b worst!
BUT juz understand tis k
i choose to kip quiet coz i dun wana make things worst
dun tink tat u can climb to ta top of my head n shit dere!
dere r lots of things which im real tired of
n i carn b bothered wif it animore
so i dun gif a damn wif wateva it's gg on
but dere's a limit to everything.
DONT TEST MY PATIENCE!
dun try to take advantage of anitink.
u wana play.i can play along wif u.no prob!
juz ask urself if u can take it.
i treat everybody equally.
oz i treasure each n every one s my friend.
but if u wana gif mi all kinda fuck up att.
tats it.dun expect me 2 b nice to u.
ive been curbing my temper n all.
coz i promise my boi i will!
but tat doesnt mean im somebody without ani temper k!
if u wana quarrel wid mi over such small lil things.
n juz tot tat im da onli person u can vent ur anger on
bloody hell fuck off.
n if u wana be a backstabber or 2 headed snake behind our back
u can 4get abt us trusting u agn
or even treating u s nice s b4.
tats me.i dun care abt wat others think of mi.
coz tats simply me myself n i.
wateva it is..juz dun provoke mi animore.
or u will noe wat hell is.
n for goodness sake.if ur friend wana show us wats hell.
by all means come la.u tink i scared?
knn...bloody freak!dunch noe anitink den dunch sae so much.
u tink u r tat great?!
DUN MAKE MY TOES LAUGH!
fuck off man.i juz wan a peaceful life.
n tats y im not finding ani troubles.
but seems lyk u guys r all asking 4 it!
den we shall wait n c!

Zombie@3/01/2005 05:22:00 PM